ANP and EP development
But now the next question could be:
How and when does that all starts to develop itself?
To understand things I create maps/charts in my schematic thinking brain. I need to make things schematically visible so I can build a better understanding of all that I learn. I don’t know if that way of thinking comes with me also suffering a ASD (autistic Asperger), but some of those schematically thoughts I want to share with you all. So I did make some maps/charts which I close in.
Although, the biggest compliment already goes to my own therapist at the Dutch TRTC Assen-Drenthe (B.M.C.).
He didn’t give up on me and took the challenge to educate me and to help me out to get started with integrating traumatized experiences and reducing my PTSD DID symptoms. We still have a long way to go, but I have renewed hope that I still can learn how to live as a completed personality and leave the surviving mode behind me.
That fight will go on, and with the help of my therapist I won’t give up.
And again I cry out to my therapist or one of the other Dutch Kings of traumatology to adjust my thinking if I go badly wrong here.
But enough feathers in the *BIEP* of my therapist,
back to the maps/charts in my Traumatized tertiary DID-ASD brain.
And hopefully it starts a nice discussion of how DID ANP’s and EP’s develop itself.
So let’s go to the four head emotions we are all born with,
and which are a part of our own biological determinants. Those four emotions gives an infant the direct instinct to react on hunger, pain, sickness, pleasure, warm feelings, etc..
2. Joy – Pleasure
4. Grief – sadness
These four emotions are needed to start developing an own personality.
I’m convinced that those four head emotions also take part in the development of DID-ANP’s (at a very young age) and that they are the bases of developing the daily life ANP+EP’s handling (act) system.
If an infant goes through a normal early stage of life development than the head emotions are integrated to start building of an own personality.
Within DID one, more of even all four of those head emotions didn’t integrate. They started out building separate identifiable parts of the personality – Apparently Normal Personality parts; ANP’s (and EP’s) handling (act) systems, which are stable over time, place, thinking, feelings, memories, and also act stable from a task that they are the best in to handle or to manage. From this task they interact with each other and environment.
So I dare to say and write that those head emotions are forming the base of the handling parts, the act systems – the Apparently normal personality parts (ANP’s) of DID clients.
I’m not a researcher, clinician or Ph.D. psychologist, so I can only give to you all the maps/charts that goes in my brain. And which I can recognize as how I did survive and how I’m functioning as a traumatized tertiary DID client. The theory of the structural dissociation gives my weird being a raison d ‘ être.
I survived, I survive and I exist as ‘me’.
As one traumatized personality with more than one identifiable Apparently Normal personality part.
DID, the tertiary structural dissociation of the personality – complex PTSD, level III !
take notice of the color switch !